Seek

As I continue to say my self love affirmations and listen to them at night while I sleep, I’m beginning to notice these teeny tiny little inklings I’ve been getting to do certain things… for example, my husband and I were talking about the stress that I’ve been feeling at work, and I was thinking to myself that I might want to go back to part time instead of full time… In our conversation, my husband actually suggested cutting back my hours as a possible solution to my stress dilemma.

Usually, I would just continue to work and try to adjust to the not so healthy work environment… but instead of just taking crap out of a sense of duty, I actually began to talk to myself about what I deserve… and I deserve to be happy and healthy, I deserve to live the life that my heart desires, I deserve it just as much as anybody else does.

This pattern of thinking is foreign for me, but I know that the self love affirmations I say daily are helping, because part of loving yourself is truly believing that you deserve to be happy. Watching the world around me as a kid, I didn’t see too many people living life on their own terms, doing what they loved everyday, thriving and flourishing. I saw hard working people, who got laid off from jobs that they had given their all to, I saw these people get up and go to work every day to provide for their families, but had very little extra outside of what was spent on the necessities.

This is the story of most people in the world, we let life happen to us instead of letting life know e in me now, and I believe that I deserve to live an extraordinarily joyous and fulfilling life, watching and experiencing all of my dreams coming true.

Statements like these can only be made true by someone who knows in their hearts that they deserve the best of what life has to offer… someone who does not love themselves will never feel like they deserve the best of anything and they will keep bringing situations into their lives that make them unhappy, knowingly or unknowingly.

Going from full time to part time doesn’t seem like such a big deal to the naked eye… especially because I am blessed to be able to take the loss as far as the money is concerned… but taking a deeper look at the situation allows me to see that slowly but surely, I am beginning to love myself a little bit more each day.

I am finally taking my feelings into consideration instead of just ignoring or dismissing them and acting like everything is fine like I usually do. I’m patting myself on the back right now for the baby steps I’m taking, and for continuing to be consistent with my affirmations.